Arise daughter Zion

Although you have made mistakes, you are still worthy
God says
Arise daughter Zion
You may have been kicked down over and over again
But again God says
Arise daughter Zion
The enemy tried to take you out, and pull you under
God says
Arise daughter Zion
There were times you stepped away from God but he never stepped away from you
God says
Arise daughter Zion
God didnt afflict pain upon you
Its because you kept running, he couldn't heal You, but he loves you
God says
Arise daughter Zion
Don't let the guilt of your past, keep you prisoner
God says
Arise daughter Zion
The world says you are alone
But GOD will NEVER leave you nor forsake you
God says
Arise daughter Zion
There maybe places in you that may seem to be filled with darkness
That is where GODs love will shine the BRIGHTEST
God says
Arise daughter Zion
Satan says God doesn't love you, your a mistake, give up.
GOD is our father he wants the best for you
And again GOD says
Arise daughter Zion
Lord I need you, I can't do.it on my own, I won't waste anymore time, I will keep fighting, I will keep going. I will obey, I will stand tall through it all
I am daughter Zion & I have risen.
-DW

Peace & Blessings Queens

Tear Down, Why?

GOD is the architect and his words and the lessons we learn is our foundation. -DW
   So far in my life I have met only a handful of women that actually encouraged and empowered me to go for my dreams, step out on Faith and to keep going despite people that have tried to discourage me.

    I will be 24 years old next month May 5, 2013 and so far I have met more women that were selfish, discouraging and non empowering. I understand we all want to make something out of our lives, and Live a life with Purpose. A lot of women are focused on competing with each other, that instead of this being a beautiful journey they become miserable, envious, hateful, and try to put others down because they are not where they want to be. Most Women see the progression, success, of other women and they get upset because they want to be there. The progression can be mentally, physically, emotionally or spiritually, and the bad feelings they have fester into jealousy. A lot of Women have to realize that everyone, I mean EVERYONE has a journey. It could have taken that person years to get where they are, went through so many trials, had periods of discouragement, but they still managed to make their dreams a reality. Everything is a process, nothing worth having, or worthy doesn't happen over night it has to be built the right way.

   All you can do is focus on your growth, GOD, your journey and enjoying it along the way. Instead of being envious, or jealous how about asking for help. Don't be afraid to ask GOD for some help, clarity, direction and how to get help from others. Sometimes you won't get help from others, GOD will show you how to help yourself. I actually experienced that myself, I was looking to GOD for the help of others because I didn't think I was capable of doing it on my own. One day I started playing around in adobe graphics designs program and I made my own T-shirt designs and also made a logo for Queens of Purpose. Yes I was super, stoked and of course I had to share what happen, GOD is so awesome. So Don't be afraid to ask GOD for help. In the bible it says ask and you shall receive, if you believe that your prayers will be answered you will receive it (Luke 11:9, Matthew 21:22) I can't say that it will happen on that day, the next day, week, or month but what I can tell you is that it will be answered.

   I can count on one hand how many Women that actually helped me as much as they could, giving advice to help me go for my dreams. It came a point where I had to stand on my own, work and keep Faith that GOD would show me what I needed to do. I prayed every night and day for help and I thought it would never come but that's when GOD would place someone in my life and really they were already there but GOD gave me clarity to see that. Many times I asked Women for help, not physical help but help point me in the right direction, for a little advice. You know what they did? Those women either ignored me, or instead of giving me a list of pros & cons they flat out tried to discourage me by giving new all the cons of pursuing my dreams.

  Then I started thinking if it was so bad, then why do they have their business, what made them keep going if pursuing it was such a bad thing. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks these women were afraid to help because they were scared of it stopping their business, so then they went into competition mode. A good friend of mine, she is a fashion blogger Tamisha Monet of www.theurbanclassboutique.com Blog said " by me helping, it doesn't make me feel I will lose sight of my business, or my goals. To many women think that by helping other women it's going to stop their business."

  In reality when you help others you help yourself unintentionally. You have just built a lasting relationship as a friend, and possibly in the future a business partner. We must Empower one another, Encourage each other, and inspire others to go after their dreams, the Purpose GOD has for them. We all have a Purpose and within our Purpose we should always Encourage others. Helping your sister won't stop your shine, it will just make it that much brighter.
 
   There is no where to go but up, so hold your head up and keep going Ladies.

Peace & Blessings Queens
DW

Sincerely Purposeful Queen

I've been in relationships before never giving myself time to heal. I never gave myself time to really get to know me, because I was afraid of what I would see. There were times I did things I really didn't want to do to keep my "boyfriend " happy a lesson I had to learn on my own. No one could tell me anything. Being naive got my heart broken a few times and I always felt as If I was not worthy of being loved. I felt like everytime I thought it was love there was always a wake up call. Meaning everything wasn't as good as it seemed. The biggest heartache I experienced was with a guy I was in a relationship for a year. When I thought about it over the years I realized JESUS kept me from an even greater heartache.

When I started building my relationship with Christ our relationship became rocky, well let's say what I couldn't see before was becoming more clear. I told my "boyfriend " I was getting baptized, but he seemed to not really care, I thought he would be Happy for me because it was important to me but I was sadly mistaken. The day of my baptismal ceremony my family was there for the morning service and for my ceremony, my "boyfriend" came late and left early. Right then I should have let him go but again I was being so naive. When I talked to him and told him that I was going to be celibate he nearly lost it. Two weeks after that conversation he broke up with me, and I was devastated. I felt like I wasn't worthy, like it was something wrong with me and I cried all night. I called my spiritual mom and she gave encouraging words and prayed with me but she told me I needed to call on JESUS and that's what I did. He told me that he had me covered.
The next morning I felt a bit down, but somehow I knew it was going to be Okay.

I know we all struggle with our own heartaches, and insecurities, but Don't let that keep you from GOD. After that breakup, a few months went by, I was doing well but I stumbled a few times and I felt guilty for a long time. I was scared of being lonely and I made my way back into another relationship. Instead of using wisdom and listening to GOD I did my own thing. I became pregnant with my beautiful daughter, right then I had an Epiphany, really it was GOD he said I no longer could think about myself I had to make a change not only for myself but for my daughter.

I knew my daughter needed me to be a positive role model, head on straight and I had to keep her covered. I knew the only way of doing that was really seeking the love of GOD instead the love from a man. There was more growing I needed to do. I cut off relationships with her father and unintentionally cut off friends but I knew it needed to be done. My life was empty but know I had my daughter and JESUS made me whole again. Jesus became my strength,  and over time my Peace and joy. I needed more of JESUS and less of me, everytime I tried to do it on my own, or thought I could do it on my own I would just stumble. The only love I knew that was unconditional and true was the Lords love. So I took a vow of celibacy, when I was three months pregnant. Since having my daughter I've grown so much. I've been tempted so much, in so many ways and when I get close to compromising myself GOD always shows up on time. GOd told me "I have so much in-store for you, just wait patiently." GOD said "you're my daughter and you are worthy to be loved, I have someone just for you, to do kingdom work with you, but I have to build both of you up so you'll be ready." Whenever I am feeling tempted I look at God's word and His promises 1 Corinthians 10:13 The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And GOD is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, He will show you a way out so that you can endure.

Many times I thought I would fail but GOD always gave me a way out.

In the past sometimes I wanted to talk to my old friends and family about being celibate and about getting to know themselves, but I felt they wouldn't receive me as much as a stranger would. They would look at me like "Girl nobody wants to hear that"  I started feeling guilty and feeling as if I should repent because I didn't take the opportunity to share JESUS with them. A lot of times I just kept to myself because nobody really understood my journey, and they still won't. All I could do was be an example, and pray for them. I learned to walk around unashamed of my relationship with JESUS. I realized JESUS is never ashamed of me so I walk around a lot bolder. I am willing to share JESUS and my testimony with anybody that will not only hear it but listen. Regardless of the pain you may endure Ladies I want you to know it will never last. JESUS is ready to heal and make you over. When you focus on your relationship with Christ, you won't ever give another man the chance to hurt you. Taking a vow of celibacy the second time around and actually staying committed has helped me to grow so much. Yes, it has been a struggle but it also taught me to love myself first and give myself time to heal from old wounds and past hurts. Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.

You were placed on this earth, created to be more than eye candy, video vixens, strippers, prostitute/hoes "wifey", side chick, main chick, dime, Oh yeah and bad b*tch. You were created with a beautiful Purpose, to be an amazing Woman, intelligent, Woman of GOD, an all around encouraging wonderfully made person. I know in this day and age with so many things going on, new trends it's hard to keep up but GOD says "Don't try to keep up with the world, you only need my approval." When you seem insignificant remember Romans 12:2 Don't copy the behavior and customs of the world, but let GOD transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.

Walk boldly in Christ, Praise him for who he is, love yourself, get to know you. Know that you have a Purpose and remember you are so worthy. GOD love is real, look at the grace and mercy He has shown us. Ephesians 2:8 GOD saved you by His grace when you believed. And you can't take credit for this, it is a gift from GOD.
              
                  Sincerely brokenhearted girl
                      Turned Purposeful Queen

Peace & Blessings Queens
DW

Fitness M.O.M.s In the Park

Hey Ladies In the Sacramento and surrounding areas, that are mommies, want to workout but DON'T have the motivation join my sisters and I for Saturday, Sunday or both days to workout in Jefferson Park. There is No fee, just bring water, lots of energy and POSITIVE attitude, also make sure to wear COMFORTABLE shoes, and clothing.
Fitness M.O.M.s
Motivating Other Mom's, I am not a fitness guru, I am a mom like you with Extraordinary goals, ideas and BIG DREAMS, and I have a desire to be healthy, get in shape and meet new people and motivate on the way. It's not about making money, but about really having common ground and creating an empowering atmosphere, and helping each other reach our goals, reaching beyond our comfort zones, it's a transformation.

For our Mommies to be, there will be walking involved, light stretching, yoga friendly poses for you and baby. If you feel the need to sit down take a rest do so please we do NOT want you to over exert yourselves. What we need from you all is the same as above, COMFORTABLE shoes and clothing, water, energy, and a positive attitude.

This group was inspired by the weekend workout my sisters and I did, and it was lots if fun! We pushed each other to keep going, it was much needed motivation. Starting next Saturday which is April 13, 2013 @ 10:00 a.m. we will meet, and every weekend after that, Sundays will be different we can all try to meet in the after noon 12:30-12:45 p.m. Throughout the week you do your regular routine, and when we come back to meet on the weekends we can share what worked for us and what didn't work for us.

If you wish to contact me email me and I will give you my number dwils.ucb@gmail.com
Ladies that are not in the area I suggest you get you a partner that will help you stay motivated or find other mommies, like yourself, get together and workout!

Use To See

What I USE to see was a girl screaming to be saved
What I USE to see was a girl that was broken
What I USE to see was a girl that didn't like what she saw, scared of what she would be.

In today's society, not enough young girls and Women respect themselves, trying to stay up to date with each and every NEW trend. So many desperately seek attention, love and affection from boys and men, when if they really took the time they'd see that in JESUS. I am not judging anyone at all because I USE to be that girl. I wanted the attention of others so bad that I caused myself heartache and pain. Now I look to JESUS for everything, to GOD for all my needs. Instead of putting a band aid on my pain, and brokeness that would only last temporarily I looked to JESUS for lasting aid, for healing.

   Ladies I know it's hard compromising yourself, because you want to fit in. I know all you want is to be loved, to feel wanted, fill that void, to have protection, BUT like Kirk Whalum said in his song "Falling in love with JESUS was the best thing I've ever done". JESUS will supply you with all your needs. You will have unconditional love, will always be protected and wanted. All the pain, heartache, struggles, and frustration will no longer exist, or better to get through it if you stopped fighting for control. You have to stop lowering yourself, your standards to receive what JESUS can and will give you ten fold, from a boy or man that can't even love himself enough to seek JESUS.

    I always think about that saying "If you can't love yourself, how in the heck you gone love someone else?" In my opinion I feel your doing yourself a great injustice not having a relationship with JESUS. JESUS is love right? When you open yourself up to the love of Christ, you open yourself up to healing, to a spiritual journey that will NOT harm you but HEAL you.

   Your journey will teach you sister,  many things about yourself, that it helps build you up. Having a relationship with JESUS helps lead you to your purpose and gives you wisdom on how to treat yourself, how others should treat you and how you should treat others. That is the definition of loving yourself. Wake up ladies it's not too late to experience the love of Christ. It's not too late to see that you are worthy of so much, you are definitely worthy to be loved but by the right person and especially loved by GOD. You were designed and created with a purpose and until you realize that, until you take the next step to stop all that hurt and frustration, sorry to say but it will never stop, you will never know how to handle it.

  You can do things to temporarily aid it but it will still be there underneath all those old band aids. Seeking the attention of others is not worth compromising your joy. You are SMART, BEAUTIFUL, WORTHY, LOVED, and have a PURPOSE. GOD is waiting, JESUS is waiting on you, Yes it is a process to restore and untie those knots but I can Testify it's so worth it. What you see now, will become the past and it will be what you USE to see. Exodus 14:13-14 Don't be afraid. Just stand still and watch the LORD rescue you. The LORD himself will fight for you.
What I see today is a DETERMINED, OPTIMISTIC, PASSIONATE, EDUCATED, MAJESTIC, and FAVORED INSPIRATIONAL, AMBITIOUS, BEAUTIFUL, GOD FEARING WOMAN/QUEEN.

"Never would have made it without you. I'm stronger, wiser, I'm better much better" -Marvin Sapp

JESUS I love you, I need you, please help me to stay focused on your words, help me to continue to stand, help me to be strong. In JESUS name Amen.
Peace & Blessings Queens
DW

Operation: Take Back!

I know you all were wondering when I would post because I've been pretty consistent since I started the blog. Great things have been happening at least in my eyes, heart, and soul I believe they are great. So recently I have started y herbalife any one can do it, whether you want to lose weight, maintain weight, gain weight, and just be in shape and healthy.

It's a great feeling, although I am small I am NOT I repeat NOT in shape. Lol. A lot of people ask me "Girl why you working out, your already small? " It's not about getting smaller, it's about being healthy, a fitter me. Working out also involves your mind, you have to wake up with positive thoughts so you can be and stay motivated. If you wake up in a bad mood 9 times out of 10 your not going to do your workout, probably won't care what your putting into your body that day. Have you heard that saying "Your thoughts become your actions" I strongly believe that. We have to think more positive about our life, about circumstances. There is a opportunity, and lesson and every obstacle, and or trial. Guard your thoughts because if you Don't the devil will come in and and attack your mind with nothing but negativity. Negativity you can't see pass.

You don't want to become a prisoner in your own mind do you? Never able to reach your goals because your too focused on what you "think" is holding you back. Today I declare to not only take back my body but I am taking back my mind. I have gotten control over my body so that I can live a healthy life, so I can do the works of the Lord. If I am unhealthy, sick and bed ridden how can I do kingdom work. How can I finish out my purpose if I leave this earth too soon because I am not treating my body well. The same goes with my mind, I will no longer be held captive by negative thought, I will no longer let the devil discourage me from walking into my destiny. Although I still have a journey I believe I have arrived, my purpose has been signed, sealed and delivered by my father the one and only ALL MIGHTY CREATOR. I take back my mind, my body, my heart, soul and give it to Jesus!!
In the next coming weeks I am putting together a schedule for Ladies in my area to meet in the park for weekend workouts, thus has boost my motivation even more. "Fitness M.O.M.s" was inspired by my sisters and I, we went for a workout and it was so excited and liberating and FUN because we were able to motivate each other and push pass our own limits. I thought why not open this up to Mom's that desire to get back in shape but Don't have the motivation or need the extra motivation. Fitness M.O.M.s
Motivating Other Mom's, I am not a fitness guru, I am a mom like you with Extraordinary goals, ideas and BIG DREAMS, and I have a desire to be healthy, get in shape and meet new people and motivate on the way. It's not about making money, but about really having common ground and creating an empowering atmosphere, and helping each other reach our goals, reaching beyond our comfort zones, it's a transformation. Stay tuned for post with more info about Fitness M.O.Ms
Operation: Take Back is in full effect, will you join me?

Post "Fitness M.O.M.s in The Park" coming Soon...
Peace & Blessings Queens
DW

I am Not my Own!

Who am I? Where do I go? What will I become? For a long time I was so confused about where my life was headed, always changing majors in college. Out of all the jobs I had, not one made me happy, I didn't feel any joy from it until I started working with children. Working with children has brought so much joy to my life, but something was still missing. I still was doing did what I wanted to, try to be cool by doing what my friends did. Pretending to enjoy it when really I felt empty and even more confused, but I didn't want to be different, I didn't wanted to seem like the "outcast".

The first time I went to church and actually understood what was going on, and what was being said was my 7th grade year I went too church with my favorite aunt. I loved the atmosphere, I loved the feeling of being in that sacred place, and right then I knew Jesus was the one for me. After church my aunt told me "Dawneshia I see a glow about you, inside you are special" at that moment I had no idea what she meant but I kept on smiling. After that day I went to almost every service with my aunt, she introduced me to Gospel musical artist and my favorite was and will always be MARY MARY. From that day my life changed and I had not notice, but what I really didn't know was that God had a calling on my life before the womb so it was destined. As I got older I drew closer to Jesus. I began going to Bible study, I joined the praise dance team rehearsal was every Wednesday and youth night which was every Friday and services on Sunday morning. I love Jesus so much that I didn't want to leave him, I didn't mind not going out with friends.

Then it was the following year I moved to Sacramento away from my church family, away from my aunt, but I didn't think I would stray away from Jesus. My aunt passed away that year and it devastated me, I felt out off place, I felt different, I felt alone. Something that I didn't realize was that Jesus never left me. All through out high school I did everything to not seem different, I graduated and turned 18 I thought nobody could tell me nothing. Then it became a downward spiral even when I tried to get back right, I thought I was to far away from Christ to be redeemed. I thought I had sinned so much that he could never love me. I thought God was upset and stopped listening to my prayers, so I didn't care if I saw another day.

One night I cried until I gave myself a head ache, I prayed and asked the Lord what does my life mean, I feel so worthless, Lord help me, please hear me. Take this pain away, I Don't know how much more I can take. I said Lord I'm scared, confused, tired, and hurting Lord take it away. I had cried so much I dozed off to sleep the Lord said "Dawneshia I got you, keep fighting" The demon was right there in front of me he told me I won't let it hurt you. That night I felt at Peace, I knew God really had a calling on my life.

I drew closer to the Lord but still stumbling but because God has so much grace and mercy that he has shown upon me I am here still able to tell my story, my testimony. No matter how much I still tried to do my own thing I always ended right back to God. I still was a bit confused not knowing what my purpose is but through my pain I was always able to stop my pity party, encourage and uplift others that were feeling down, that were going through something tough in their life. Then God started sending Confirmation, that was my purpose that everything I went through was not only for me but for God's glory. I am to minister to not only youth but women as well. I am not my own person, because I belong to Jesus see, I am about kingdom business.

No matter what I go through, no matter what type of storm I am in, I will still encourage, still uplift, alwaus pray for whoever needs it. That is who I am, what I have become, that is my destiny. It doesn't matter how long it took me to get here, I can say I MADE IT.

Whoever reads this, wherever you are just know that you are NOT alone, NEVER alone. Jesus hears your cries, he sees that you are in pain pray and let him do the mending Ladies. You are BRAVE,  SMART, BEAUTIFUL, AND WORTHY AND YOU HAVE A PURPOSE! KEEP smiling, and keep praying Jesus got you!

Peace & Blessings Queens
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